GOODBOY DEREK.
it's sleepyderek talking so pardon the rubbish.
i'll update tonight.
HOOGASHAGAAA.
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[edit]well let me specify. this song isn't written for any special purpose. especially not for YOU. gahhh haha. it's so funny how .. okay nevermind =)) enough bitching tonight... LOVE GLADYS AND SHANE AND NAT AND JO AND SANDRA[/edit]
your bitter goodbye is ringing through this quiet night
this idle hour just won't pass
i've never missed you this much
never thought i would
didn't think you'd feel so far away
your summer perfume is still blowing through this hallway
autumn's ember red shadow dance
i miss our midnight rides; on highway 18
eighteen is gone
and so go pass the lights
and all the excuses
you could've left sincerely yours
don't you think it's obvious
that i want to say more
coz anything too daring to say to you
would be said in this letter; and burned away
so you never - realise i'm here
i'm thinking of your vague reply
so i can understand
why we put this at rest
why we forget to
say that we were leaving
say that we were sorry
the past remains unspoken as this vacant night is dying
i still miss your summer perfume
this cold air brings in such a distance to us
such a painful distance
i'm still waiting for you to say you hate me now
so i don't have to hold on to this burning heart
this burning heart is getting old
while sitting on this cold kitchen floor
head down to hide the tears i realise
i finally realised - that you were never meant for me
myprayer` 8:46 PM
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current:
song| hands down
by| dashboard confessional
mood| ok
hands down this is the best day i can ever remember
always remember
the sound on the stereo
the dim of the soft lights
the scent of your hair
That you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock
when we realised it's so late
and this walk that we shared together
the streets were wet
and the gate was locked
so i jumped it and let you in
and you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you KISSED ME LIKE YOU MEANT IT
this air is blessed; you share with meTHE ISLAND is not a bad movie
only nat keeps going on and on about how hot
EWAN MCGREGOR(sp?) is.
and i think scarlet johanson is hot stuff
her eyes looks funny tho.
the day went on pretty plain
not much excitment present
i'm not in the blogging mood
haven't had much mood for anything these few days
gahhh....
myprayer` 8:33 PM
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current:
song| smelly cat
by| -
mood| sick
smelly cat, smelly cat,
what did they do to you?i'm sicksicksick,
omfg sick.
and i have an ulcer.
which makes me even more sick.
hate the major phlegm in my throat.
i feel like a clogged up tap.
BUT TODAY WILL BE A GREAT DAY; i say
myprayer` 11:22 AM
Friday, July 22, 2005
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current:
song| eleven
by| taking back sunday
mood| better
i can remember parking lot nights
did they mean to you; wrapping my arms around your body
protecting and holding you
maybe it wasn't good enough but i gave you all i could
well your sweet whispers never told me - you'd leave me THIS WAYi'm fine.
better.
thanks gladys.shane.nat.myra.jo.sandra.steph.
GAH. school was boring today,
and the only other thing i look forward to was training.
tennis was goood!
dinner was better! love you guys.
SPECIALPLUGS:
jeolinita natasha shane
myprayer` 10:06 PM
Thursday, July 21, 2005
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current:
song| a lonely september
by| plain white T's
mood| horrid
I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
everything i see reminds me of youi passed my general paper afterall
Damn HOD miscalculated my marks
so i got myself 2 A'level passes
and one AO' level pass.
though it's not alot
i'm pleased with my improvement
thanks SHANE for being there when i had that
bad horrid night.
thanks NAT for comment.
thanks MAX for tag, love bestie.
thanks LILY for not saying goodbye.
well. goodbye
go have a good life
and enjoy it without me
i swallowed my pride on the other end of the reciever
and took the humiliation
but what does it matter now?
i've noticed my pillow soaked with sweat
tears and blood
and you won't be able to EASE anything anymore
yes bring back those days (metamorphosisfarkedlife. draft)
where nothing seemed to matter.
and i knew i could always have someone to run to in the end.
i'll seal the path now because that's the only thing that'll do any of us good.
i'm sorry for being a burden
i'm sorry for acting BURGH retarded
i'm sorry for showing you my boxers
i'm sorry for not stopping you when you pressed the bell
i'm sorry for being pissed at you
i'm sorry for being only able to make you happy on the outside (yes that does sound oddly familiar doesn't it)
i'm sorry for laughing at your medicine
i'm sorry i never told you how bad smoking is for you
i'm sorry i ignored you
i'm sorry i SEEMED as though i never did cared
i'm sorry i took so long to hold your hand
i'm sorry when i finally hugged you it was our first and our last
i'm sorry i haven't returned your 12stones cd and keys
i have endless apologies but i'm certain nothing would matter anymore
because we're not even friends no more
but remeber 'POK-JUIYOU'
please do. because i know i won't.
myprayer` 7:30 PM
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
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current:
song| taste of ink
by| the used
mood| -
is it worth is can you even hear me?
being half dead wasn't what i planned to be;
now i'm ready to be freetoday was random.
the unspoken should be left the way it is.
sorry for the shakles,
i'll hand you the keys.
now be ready to be free.
/lily.
myprayer` 11:21 PM
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
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current:
song| i'm a fake
by| the used
mood| sick
I am not afraid to die.
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment.
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts.
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks.
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart.i didn't do so well for math,
nor did i pass my general paper.
i think i'm stupid.
really really stupid.
don't ask me if i'm okay because it's clear that i'm not.
rhetorical questions should burn in hell
BURNBURNBURN.
didn't do much yesterday.
just got lost in toapayoh and it wasn't the least bit fun
made me feel even more stupid
nothing much happened today,
only i realised i shouldn't have even DESIRED to want to take a'levels in the first place
i'm clearly not cut out for studying
not the least bit
spank my ass and call me charlie =(
i need southpark.
i need my solace.
i've made so many careless mistakes in my chem and phy paper.
and i probly would've gotten a much better grade if i didn't
and i prolly wouldn't had to end up begging for mercy points.
but that's what i do
i make mistakes
so many of them
and i can't afford to make anymore.
and what else...?
i love pink tacos
myprayer` 6:36 PM