[edit]i had a great great time at chalet on the first night.
thanks SARAH.JULIANNE.CHERYL.STEPH.KAI.ANDY.FELICIA.CLARIS.AARON.
and guys, lets just hope our CHEE-BYE-YAHHH would stay with us =\love the suntannians. love them to shits. [/edit]
thanks STEPH.KAI.ANDY.&FELICIA for mr. spongebob =))
i love it.
sadly, i can't.
and it was honestly a bad bad bad thing to feel.
nawh...
=)) 2days to 17.
2days to moving.
2days to school.
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current:
song| embers and envelope
by| mae
mood| SUPERhappy
embers, we're burning bridges down
our envelope stuffed with feelings found
to write this down as a meaning to reconcile
what's broke, can be fixed tonightalthough i was tired,
although i was drained,
although i was pissed (in the morning),
the evening turned out pretty well.
although the un-surprising surprise wasn't surprising (not much anyway)
i STILL LOVE FTPSSIANS =))
the surprise went like this:
so waiaung dated me after training,
for a birthday dinner.
amanda came along.
we were discussing where we were gonna eat.
then we finally settled down on NYDC at wheellocks.
made our way there,
waiaung withdrew money
and we saw DON and CALVIN walking pass "coincidentally"
they joined us for dinner.
when we reached NYDC (this was the surprise)
i saw JESSLINE, FELICIA, WENLING, CHUNWENG, YINGQI, JOUIE, JOCELYN, CONSTANCE, ALDIS, and PENNY sitting at one long stretch of table waiting for me =D
happy boy i am.
i knew DON and CALVIN and JOUIE were coming beforehand,
because they gave themselves away,
i didn't expected so many people to be there.
i MISS the whole lot of them.
RACHEL and MIAOLING came after that.
had dinner at NYDC,
and precious friends got me a Crumpler Bag (black & yellow)
Jouie and Jocelyn got me a Disney Large Mug with scented flowers and Candle innit (blue mug).
it wasn't much of the present that i was happy about,
it was them =))
myprayer` 10:07 PM
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current:
song| -
by| -
mood| rushing
i'm rushing, but i had shit last night
and when i woke up LATE for project,
as i stress,
i get shit from people.
LOOK IF YOU DON'T TRUST ME THEN DON'T BOTHER.
never did anyway.
"he make me happy on the outside,
but you make me happy on the inside"i'm not being a bitch to rake any past up,
but if you can't stop slapping me whenever you want to,
or scolding/insulting me AND EXPECT ME TO TAKE IT LIKE THAT
sorry.
i can't.
so beat it.
and YES I'M RUSHING FOR TRAINING NOW SO EXCUSE ME.
bye.
myprayer` 12:17 PM
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current:
song| the taste of ink
by| the used
mood| jubilant
is it worth it can you even hear me?
here i am, alive at last
and i'll SAVOUR every moment of this
introdcing my bestest best girl-pal.
we are the jie-meis =))
ok no i'm not,
i'm not gay thank you very muchly.
CHERYL pretty much rocks my socks =))
mhmkay,
had fun at suntec getting barbecue stuffs
and noticing how ANDY got so excited when we stepped into the super market,
while most of us were - clearly - lethargic.
what can i say.
we're kind to losers. (I'M JUST KIDDING! I LOVE ANDY! <3 you many many)
didn't quite had dinner,
had yami yoghurt =))
sat down at the fountain,
made a really, well, interesting dedication.
what can i say, it's CoOlXxXz(sp?) man -shudders-
myprayer` 12:06 AM
Monday, June 20, 2005
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current:
song| losing you
by| busted
mood| crushed
so tell me why?
i'm swimming against the tide
and i'm praying for a lifeline
coz i'm losing you.
so tell me why,
YOU DON'T CARE ENOUGH TO TRY
are you giving up this fight
i can't stand; won't stand
losing you
it was so strong, where did it all go wrong?sigh
myprayer` 10:49 AM
Sunday, June 19, 2005
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current:
song| august in bethany
by| the julianna theory
mood| messy
with the sound of the ocean crashing
7.30, friday evening
everything comes tumbling down
i choke back each tear that bleeds
i rather rest forever in your arms
i'd rather stay here, than go
but i know that i should leave
...and i sit here helpless
i think of our times together
is it fading, or am i dreaming
everything you said - lives on
i cherish our memories
i wanna kiss your tears away tonight
it's hard to give up the one you never thought you'd leave
don't go, you said you wouldn't, said you couldn'tanyone who doesn't d/l this song,
should burn in hell =D
ask me and i'll send please,
it's damn good.
i rate it ***** (see! five stars)
myprayer` 11:06 PM
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current:
song| distance
by| evan and jaron
mood| sleepy
i'm not ashamed; that i can't take a breath without saying your name
i can brave a hurricane and; still be standing tall when all the dust has settled down, but i can't
take the distancenight safari was alright,
althou i can never accept the fact that before we even stepped into the safari,
the
scent stench of elephant POO was already overwhelming
but the trails and the ride was superb
HAPPY HAPPY birthday constance.
so thus were their dates;
karen + waiaung
constance + sherman
jouie + jocelyn
me + bubble tea bottle (empty by the way)
althou night safari after training was a bad idea,
i almost died, lol.
and i miss the suntannians.
i miss steph,
i miss sarah,
i miss AARON!
i miss julianne.
i miss andy + felicia
i miss honkee + china-ee
=\
yawns.
myprayer` 1:45 PM
Saturday, June 11, 2005
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current:
song| mr. brightside
by| the killers
mood| good
jealousy; turning saints into the sea
swimming through sick lullabys
choking on your alibi
but it's just a price i pay
destiny is calling me
open up my EAGER eyes - coz i'm mr. bightside
i just can't look - it's killing me; and taking controlhello jolene.
i hate your alarm =\lol but it's alright, i'll get you a new one for christmas.
studied a little with wenling today,
but we ended up talking most of the time
oh well - bummer
but i miss old times
i miss classes in secondary school
i miss all the friends
all the excitement.
all the joy (and pain, yes)
i miss 2004.
gotta gotta get down
myprayer` 8:15 PM
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
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current:
song| several ways to die trying
by| dashboard confessional
mood| drained
we are intrigued;
take notice, take interest, take me with you
when all OUR fears fall on deaf ears tonightwe were bored yesternight,
and Sandra was bored,
and she needed to wait for her phone to be charged,
so she could go sleep.
and i (being nice =)) accompanied her.
so we were sms-ing
and she asked who were the top ten people in my list,
my life.
that got me thinking,
how very little people i cared so much for,
how very little people i trust =))
and i think that's good.
because,
i'd rather have a small group of trust-able friends
than a huge group of hypocrites =))
so these were my people;
GOD (but he's negligible)
Malvin (chua)
Jolene (toh)
Zachary (max)
Stephanie (low)
Sandra (lee)
Natasha (pok)
Mommy (uhm, my mom?)
Amanda (ang)
Zin (wai aung)
Constance (kang)
it was in no order of preference; i SWEARyeah =)) thanks
myprayer` 12:11 AM
Thursday, June 02, 2005
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current:
song| ephiphany
by| staind
mood| plain
i am nothing but, a little boy inside;
who cries out for ATTENTION - yet i always try to hide
...and i'll dig myself a little hole,
inside your precious hearti'm on my own.
i don't need you.
but who am i to kid?
would you stay tonight,
and make everything alright.
i can't live not knowing you need me like i need you.
you're hard to fathom.
you're hard to reach - i'll let go.
fly away then; if that makes you happy.
myprayer` 8:38 PM
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current:
song| i miss you
by| blink 182
mood| moodless
hello there; the angel from my nightmare
the shadow from the background of the mourn
the unsuspecting victim
of darkness in the valley
we can live like jack and sally if you want
where you can always find me
we'll have halloween on christmas
and in the night we'll wish this never end
where are you; and i'm sorry
i cannot sleep, i cannot dream tonight
i need somebody and always
this sick strange darkness
comes creeping in so haunting every night
and as i stare i counted
the webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
will you come home and stop this pain tonight?
don't waste your time on me;
you're already the voice inside my headi'm left with nothing to say
all i know,
all i've got to say,
wouldn't make much of a difference because you know DAMN well
i'm different with you.
i miss you
myprayer` 6:48 AM
