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Sunday, July 24, 2005


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current:
song| fuck it
by| eamon
mood| lilsick


fuck you; you hoe, i don't want you back


my whole sunday was spent in my house
not that it has gone to waste anyway
i seldom stay home much
and i think i was being a good boy by staying home today =)
GOODBOY DEREK.
i wanna get alot alot alot of stuffs
where am i gonna get the money from?
i know i'll rob the bank
and i'm sorry for this post
it's sleepyderek talking so pardon the rubbish.


i have nothing nice to blog about
i'll update tonight.
HOOGASHAGAAA.



myprayer` 6:43 PM
Saturday, July 23, 2005


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[edit]well let me specify. this song isn't written for any special purpose. especially not for YOU. gahhh haha. it's so funny how .. okay nevermind =)) enough bitching tonight... LOVE GLADYS AND SHANE AND NAT AND JO AND SANDRA[/edit]


your bitter goodbye is ringing through this quiet night
this idle hour just won't pass
i've never missed you this much
never thought i would
didn't think you'd feel so far away


your summer perfume is still blowing through this hallway
autumn's ember red shadow dance
i miss our midnight rides; on highway 18
eighteen is gone


and so go pass the lights
and all the excuses
you could've left sincerely yours
don't you think it's obvious
that i want to say more
coz anything too daring to say to you
would be said in this letter; and burned away
so you never - realise i'm here


i'm thinking of your vague reply
so i can understand
why we put this at rest
why we forget to
say that we were leaving
say that we were sorry
the past remains unspoken as this vacant night is dying
i still miss your summer perfume
this cold air brings in such a distance to us
such a painful distance


i'm still waiting for you to say you hate me now
so i don't have to hold on to this burning heart
this burning heart is getting old
while sitting on this cold kitchen floor
head down to hide the tears i realise
i finally realised - that you were never meant for me



myprayer` 8:46 PM



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current:
song| hands down
by| dashboard confessional
mood| ok


hands down this is the best day i can ever remember
always remember
the sound on the stereo
the dim of the soft lights
the scent of your hair
That you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock
when we realised it's so late
and this walk that we shared together
the streets were wet
and the gate was locked
so i jumped it and let you in
and you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you KISSED ME LIKE YOU MEANT IT


this air is blessed; you share with me


THE ISLAND is not a bad movie
only nat keeps going on and on about how hot
EWAN MCGREGOR(sp?) is.
and i think scarlet johanson is hot stuff
her eyes looks funny tho.
the day went on pretty plain
not much excitment present
i'm not in the blogging mood
haven't had much mood for anything these few days


gahhh....



myprayer` 8:33 PM



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current:
song| smelly cat
by| -
mood| sick


smelly cat, smelly cat,
what did they do to you?


i'm sicksicksick,
omfg sick.
and i have an ulcer.
which makes me even more sick.
hate the major phlegm in my throat.
i feel like a clogged up tap.


BUT TODAY WILL BE A GREAT DAY; i say



myprayer` 11:22 AM
Friday, July 22, 2005


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current:
song| eleven
by| taking back sunday
mood| better


i can remember parking lot nights
did they mean to you; wrapping my arms around your body
protecting and holding you


maybe it wasn't good enough but i gave you all i could
well your sweet whispers never told me - you'd leave me THIS WAY


i'm fine.
better.
thanks gladys.shane.nat.myra.jo.sandra.steph.
GAH. school was boring today,
and the only other thing i look forward to was training.
tennis was goood!
dinner was better! love you guys.


SPECIALPLUGS: jeolinita natasha shane



myprayer` 10:06 PM
Thursday, July 21, 2005


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current:
song| a lonely september
by| plain white T's
mood| horrid


I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight


everything i see reminds me of you


i passed my general paper afterall
Damn HOD miscalculated my marks
so i got myself 2 A'level passes
and one AO' level pass.
though it's not alot
i'm pleased with my improvement
thanks SHANE for being there when i had that bad horrid night.
thanks NAT for comment.
thanks MAX for tag, love bestie.
thanks LILY for not saying goodbye.


well. goodbye


go have a good life
and enjoy it without me
i swallowed my pride on the other end of the reciever
and took the humiliation
but what does it matter now?
i've noticed my pillow soaked with sweat
tears and blood
and you won't be able to EASE anything anymore
yes bring back those days (metamorphosisfarkedlife. draft)
where nothing seemed to matter.
and i knew i could always have someone to run to in the end.
i'll seal the path now because that's the only thing that'll do any of us good.
i'm sorry for being a burden
i'm sorry for acting BURGH retarded
i'm sorry for showing you my boxers
i'm sorry for not stopping you when you pressed the bell
i'm sorry for being pissed at you
i'm sorry for being only able to make you happy on the outside (yes that does sound oddly familiar doesn't it)
i'm sorry for laughing at your medicine
i'm sorry i never told you how bad smoking is for you
i'm sorry i ignored you
i'm sorry i SEEMED as though i never did cared
i'm sorry i took so long to hold your hand
i'm sorry when i finally hugged you it was our first and our last
i'm sorry i haven't returned your 12stones cd and keys
i have endless apologies but i'm certain nothing would matter anymore
because we're not even friends no more
but remeber 'POK-JUIYOU'
please do. because i know i won't.



myprayer` 7:30 PM
Wednesday, July 20, 2005


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current:
song| taste of ink
by| the used
mood| -


is it worth is can you even hear me?
being half dead wasn't what i planned to be;
now i'm ready to be free


today was random.
the unspoken should be left the way it is.
sorry for the shakles,
i'll hand you the keys.
now be ready to be free.


/lily.



myprayer` 11:21 PM
Tuesday, July 19, 2005


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current:
song| i'm a fake
by| the used
mood| sick


I am not afraid to die.
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment.
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts.
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks.


I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart.


i didn't do so well for math,
nor did i pass my general paper.
i think i'm stupid.
really really stupid.
don't ask me if i'm okay because it's clear that i'm not.
rhetorical questions should burn in hell
BURNBURNBURN.


didn't do much yesterday.
just got lost in toapayoh and it wasn't the least bit fun
made me feel even more stupid
nothing much happened today,
only i realised i shouldn't have even DESIRED to want to take a'levels in the first place
i'm clearly not cut out for studying
not the least bit
spank my ass and call me charlie =(
i need southpark.
i need my solace.


i've made so many careless mistakes in my chem and phy paper.
and i probly would've gotten a much better grade if i didn't
and i prolly wouldn't had to end up begging for mercy points.
but that's what i do
i make mistakes
so many of them
and i can't afford to make anymore.
and what else...?


i love pink tacos



myprayer` 6:36 PM
Sunday, July 17, 2005


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current:
song| delilah
by| plain white T's
mood| full -burps-


time square can't shine as bright as you
you know it's true


listen to my voice; that's my disguise


i'm at NANA's house now
i had pizzahut and i'm uber full.
and i had ICE CREAM!
hoho. and i dread PE tomorrow
(i don't LIKE PE!)x 9271389712
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAM!
and HAPPY CONFIRMATION CLAIRE and PAM.


ok more when i'm home
so ciao



myprayer` 9:15 PM



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current:
song| gone
by| switchfoot
mood| holy


we are not infinite
we are not permanent


life is more than money
time was never money
time was never cash
life is more than hundred dollar bills


today was fun.
town with SHANE. SANDRA. and JO.
everything was just hilarious.
we ended up laughing until JO had stomachache.
then JO went for training.
me and SHANE sent SANDRA to paya lebar.
and we took one two buses to rgs.
met NICGUAN =))
concert was alright, better after intermission.
dinner was great.
life is just GREAT!
all i need now is to.... SAVE MONEY.


and like the song says;
life's just a day that doesn't last for long.



myprayer` 12:07 AM
Saturday, July 16, 2005


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current:
song| killing me
by| cautarize
mood| holy


i wonder where you are
please don't come around tonight
coz i can't stand to see you
and i don't wanna fight
give me one more drink and i swear i think i'll be ready to make the same mistakes again - with you


I finally figured out that you're not coming back
and I'm not going anywhere.
You were the one with all the faith how did you let it slip away? That's right, I'm blaming this all on you
and the little things you didn't do.
We both knew that you were stronger,
could have fought a little longer.
You didn't hold it tight enough.
You lost your grip and I slipped right through your fingers.

No more sleepless nights alone.
This bed is better without you.
No more waitin' up for calls.
I've got nothin' left to say to you.

Tell me again about those better days.
This silence hurts me more than anything you could say.
Broken knuckles, broken heart.
I fell in love then fell apart.
You tried to run, I tried to hide, still we managed to collide.
Fell so hard, matching scars.
Held you close, felt so far.
Hearts beating out of time.
You're screaming with no reason and no rhyme.

So I will save this last breath for words that I won't scream.
I don't feel like dying, but you're killing me.

Just when the wounds start healing
you're there to break me open.
Watch the blood spill. I'm getting used to this.
I'll clean it in the morning.


cautarize, the used, and mcr should rule the world one day
and hip hooray i passed me chem
with A' level pass! =D
althou it's only like a D
i'm still quite happy.
oh well. lets hope i do well for others also
town was great
budget chicken rice was good
shopping trip nextNEXT week would be even better
love steph, love kai =))


sarah don't worry. you'll be well. all'll be well.



myprayer` 12:12 AM
Thursday, July 14, 2005


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current:
song| freakish
by| saves the day
mood| bouncy


i'll make my way across the forzen seas
beyond the blank horizon
where i can forget, you and me
and get a decent night sleep


rendering me; freakish and dazed


exams are finally over
although math today was absolutely WITHOUT A DOUBT
horrific.
my papers were filled with anything,
and everything requested
'cept for one thing.
ANSWERS.
i had the worse 3hours of my life
just smoking through the questions are bad enough
and it's only mid-years.
i'll prolly just die for promos.


whee. joyful



myprayer` 7:33 PM
Tuesday, July 12, 2005


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current:
song| my everything
by| cauterize
mood| relief


i never meant to hurt you
never meant to say those things
never meant to write this down in a song about the way it used to be
it used to be so good


you used to be; MY EVERYTHING


chemistry was not good.
so wad physics.
and chinese was never once fine.
and now i'm left with math on thursday.
we'll see how it goes =\

we'll see



myprayer` 10:12 PM
Sunday, July 10, 2005


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current:
song| demolition lover
by| my chemical romance
mood| jealousy


hands in mine; into your icy blue
and then i'd say to you, we can take to the highway
with this trunk of ammunition too
i'd end my days with you
in a hail of bullets


as snow falls; on desert sky - until the end of everything


[edit]if you're actually reading this,
KNOW WHO YOU ARE and stop pretending to be nonchalent
or give rubbish excuses about not having enough money to return me
it's not 5, it's not 10.
it's FUCKING 50bucks
u 'BUY' and gave a present to someone using MY money
and act like you guys paid for it.
WISE UP AND WAKE UP.
i'm never stepping into church again.[/edit]



chemistry tomorrow isn't something i look forward to
physics and mother tongue on tuesday is something to dread about
and math.c on thursday is gonna be killer.
it's gonna be a miracle for me to survive.


and you're not helping much exactly



myprayer` 9:56 PM
Friday, July 08, 2005


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current:
song| 100 years
by| five for fighting
mood| elated


and i'm just dreaming;
counting the ways to where you are


dying; just for another moment


first i believe i ought to give an explaination about my sudden disappearance from the world of web/msn/andLASTBUTNOTLEAST; blog.


see, i MOVED =D
not as in moved site; i moved.
but like just across the street(yeah i know, bummer)
BUTBUT i love my new place.
i can see town from here,
suntec city from here,
AND sometimes i swear i can even catch a glimpse of the horizon
'coz i can see the sea when it's not foggy.
baffled?
well, it's not so mystifying if you know i'm living on the 36th level
and i'm typing this out as i'm enjoying the breeze.
=D HAPPPYBOY. and Kai is beside me now,
c'mon be nice, and say hi.
"HI KAI =D"


i'm so random,
because i'm random.
okwhat? i'm just blog-blank. can't blame me.
1273817283years of not blogging,
i'm not even used to html anymore.
EXAMS ARE COMING.
not the least bit good =

ok what else have i not told.
OK now i remember.
sandra's confi on the 25th of june.
i had an awesome time =D
claire;doms;max;nat;jo;nicholas;shane;sandra's friend(sheesh i forgot the name);sandra;pam;
dinner at sandy's place was good.
althou i have no idea why they kept laughin at me when i say something.
it wasn't meant to be funny; 0.o
HOOWELL. mhmkay, but it was fun =)
we all shared the blinking dick =O
now that's an inside joke.


mhmkay, and then happy belated birthday to me =)
and happy birthday to ANDYANGJUNLONG.
please be nice next time
And try not to force anyone down the 2nd storey.
i'll probly never invite you to my place,
because if you force me down.
it's byebye world for me =D
JUST KIDDING.
love you (from me and kai)


ok so how do i end again?



myprayer` 4:58 PM


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